Its not easy facin up when your whole world is black

1. What is your occupation? Fish Philosophy guy
2. What color are your socks right now? Is "dirty" a color?
3. What are you listening to right now? Rolling Stones - Paint it Black
4. What was the last thing that you ate? A cup of coffee, yes, I literally ate it, it *was* about 3 hours old after all
5. Can you drive a stick shift ? Why, you need a lift or something?
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? *heavy sigh* oh Misses Email Quiz Thingy .... don't EVER change, ok?
7. Last person you spoke to on the phone? a Meat Puppet
8. Do you like the person who sent this to you? I have to, if I don't *at least* force some sort of like, he'll break into my house and shed back hair all over my f##kin bathtub, methinks....
9. How old are you today? 35 years, 6 mos & 20 days old
10. Favorite drink milk or water? Rum-flavored water
11. What is your favorite sport to watch? Olympic Lawn Darts
12. Have you ever dyed your hair? *I* haven't, my nieces, on the other hand.... *insert frustration here*
13. Pets? One cat, AND 2 day old kitties!!!11!!one11!!
14. Favorite food? Egg, baked beans, spam, spam, spam, sausage, tomato and spam
15. Last movie you watched? The Happening
16. Favorite Day of the year? Febtobuaryday
17. What do you do to vent anger? 1. Collect rocks 2. Windshield appraisals
18. What was your favorite toy as a child? Spam
19. What is your favorite season? Spam
20. Hugs or kisses? Spam
21. Cherry or Blueberry? Spam
22. Do you want your friends to email you back? No, I want my friends to give me cash, (sheesh) , you're getting slow, Misses Email Quiz thingy
23. Who is most likely to respond? To what? Electroshock therapy? Probably Aquaman??
24. Who is least likely to respond? Again, a little sketchy with the questions, Misses E.Q.T.. Given the last scenario, I would think a sheep, I mean, c'mon, it's a wool sweater with legs! It probably gets shocked when it farts/sneezes/etc
25. When was the last time you cried? Nice try!
26. What is on the floor of your closet? Spam
27. Who is the friend you have had the longest that you are sending this to? I like clicking "Reply All"!!!!
28. What is your full name? Hugh Vaughan Weathergrundy MacEachern (Ok, one of those isn't right, but I can dream, right?)
29. Who is the friend you have had the shortest that you are sending this to? You know, I've had more substantial relationships, Misses E.Q.T.. I mean, I can understand the 3rd degree, it's what you *do*. But, the least you can do is pay attention to what I type!
30. Favorite smells? Dust pan/garbage can/water can/flowered rug/laundry basket
31. What inspires you? Spam
32. What are you afraid of ? Spam
33. Cheese or spicy hamburgers? Spammity spam
34. Favorite car? 1972 Oldsmobile Toronado
35. Favorite cat breed? ooOOOOOO, if you could breed a cat with a shitzou puppy! (Only so you could tell people you JUST had a litter of Sh-ats! ... or sh-itties!)
36. Number of keys on your key ring? I'd like to take this opportunity to say how much I enjoy the soothing sounds of Hurratorpedo. NO ONE ELSE can slam fridge doors and smash pots and pans like them British brainiacs!!
37. How many years at your current job? So, Misses E.Q.T., enough about me, what about you? You seem *so* professional! Let me guess ... ummm, o-oh, oh wait! I GOT IT! You're a model!! *winks seductively*
38. Favorite day of the week? Sonntag
39. How many states/provinces have you lived in? One province, SEVERAL states! State of Confusion, State of Shock, State of Union Address, ... um, wait .....
40. Do you think you're funny? I had a REALLY great time tonight, Misses E.Q.T.. We should do this again sometime! ... *starts to walk away* So, you free next Febtoburaryday?




Ciao

Now these points of data make a wonderful line

It's funny how we hate. Useless actions and words said for no other obvious reason then to cause misery. Hate breeds hate in most. Everyone has that 'Jaded switch', the one that flicks on subconsciously when it's time to defend yourself. And a good portion of people point the hate inwardly, tearing themselves apart, until all that is left is the gift of hate, given to them long ago.

I'm no better.

Can we change that part of ourselves that causes grief for no other reason then to defend our weaknesses? It's not something that can be pointed out; isolate the infection and cure it. It can only be found by the owner, that dust-covered box, still wrapped-up with the gift tag bearing the name of the giver. of course, once you find it, what do you do with it? Can't really use it effectively, right off the bat. Inside the box is black and grey, swirling around like some evil stew, and it makes noises, sour noises like those heard at a wake. Who would want to ever use this?

So, we try to give it back to the owner. Too late for that. Sorry. They gave it to you because they didn't really want it in the first place. Why did you ever take this thing? So, now, we're stuck with it. Gotta hide it. Weird thing about this gift is it reacts to other unwanted gifts. Once it hears/sees another present like itself, it pops open and starts yowling. Goddamnit! No matter how far under the bed you stuff it, it can be heard!

I guess the trick to it is right at the beginning. Don't accept the hate. Let it scream and howl. REALLY see it for what it is. Just another toddler learning that "If I bite the kitties tail, it makes a noise...." and sometimes it claws me back, feeding this blackness inside.... Then, you can see how senseless it is, a continuous circle of nothing.

Then, you can make it better.








Ciao